CHALLENGE
Drunk, I’d challenge the
biggest guy in the bar to
a fist fight or buy me a
drink,
mostly,
I was ignored and
dismissed as an
asshole,
which I was,
but,
one time, I
awoke with a
bruised and
busted
face, ribs
aching
like an
inferno
and a
torrential
hangover that
calmed with an
early morning
joint and a
glass of wine,
some soft jazz
and some
thoughts
about
getting a
job,
but I couldn’t
think of
anything that I
could do
or anyone
that would
employ me,
I gave up on
the idea of
getting a
job
and sat
looking out
of the
window
as the rain
fell lightly
into the
streets
as strangers
passed by
each other
in
silence, as
I looked
into the
distance,
knowing that
someone
somewhere,
knows a
different
life.
GAS LEAK
Ihad it real bad,
a stomach full of
hot searing air,
drunk and
stoned, I lay
upon the floor,
exploding with
flatulence, I
couldn’t help it,
it was constant
and noisy,
just several
yards away, my
friend was
getting good
with a lady and
my trumps
we’re becoming
an interference
with their
romance, I
slurred an apology
then farted with
an atomic
viciousness, that I
swear, for a
minute moment,
lifted my body,
from the floor
and then another
monster erupted
and I began
laughing and my
friend and his
lover began
laughing and a
little while later,
my stomach
calmed and the
sun knocked on
the windowsill
and I slinked off
home to change
clothes and then
make my way
to work, leaving
the lovers to
make love.
JAMMIN
Just like you, loss, has followed me
all my life, loss of childhood,
virginity, innocence, ambitions,
dreams, friends and lovers,
the loss of hope, for something
better, loss of direction
and belief and loss is natural and
should be embraced,
but we don’t
embrace it, we hold it
up for all to
see or try to hide it away,
the Buddhists
say that ‘all life is
suffering’
I think the Buddhits may
have something here,
loss
is not something
we get used to, we like to
hold onto shit, like breath
or love
and at some point we have
to let go,
let go of it all,
some Buddhists
and other ways of life
believe in
reincarnation,
well, fuck man,
I’m always in
for another
jamming session.