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Sunday, January 12, 2025

New Poems: John Grey


A HUSBAND’S PERSPECTIVE

 

Cake of soap, 

wedding ring, 

gold filling,

            so much to be amused about

            and, for having the blood sucked out of me,

there is a charge:

            don’t spill the ash,

            beware the stain –

for your concerns,

there is no comeback –

            just my flesh, my bones,

            the scars where you can see them,

            the scars where you cannot –

a doctor listens to my heart,

the enemy that I love

takes pleasure in its pain,

pain in its pleasure –

            oh my God.

            my Lucifer,

            your red hair

            is both the color

            and the cause

            of where I burn -

and your green eyes

are both hugs and punches,

            while your mouth

            works both miracles

            and their opposites –

in the same face,

the charmer, the brute,

the whisper and the shriek,

the most valuable and the fool’s gold –

            as I said,

            there is a charge,

            one you sometimes

            give back

            as a refund,

            or toss back

            as a bomb.

 

 

 

 

ON A MISSION

 

as I grow I just 

never get finished

with the sun and tides

as a five-way street

becomes an obsession

before I die -

 

between the starlight 

brushing my cheek

and the course 

of these whole changes,

I’m swapping out all I know

for found wisdom –

 

I’m never finished

so don’t ask me

for this is my entire life

and I’ve not 

time enough for yours –

 

all this unlearned stuff

I’ll tell myself 

before I go public

and I’m not ready…

tired some times

eager at others

as I peer in the cracks

of walls and clouds

and ancient earthquakes

for a blessing 

of some fair-weather truths

but mostly a concoction

of all lies –

 

 

 

 

 ED

 

He has no time for the internet,

what he calls, “words on screens.”

He misses magazines, 

like Life, like Saturday Evening Post,

and especially the car ads,

not cheesy photographs 

but paintings, lovingly detailed,

of a Hudson or a Buick,

their colors bold red or sky blue,

fenders, hubcaps, hood ornaments,

gleaming veins of silver.

 

He remembers the renderings

of Caddies from the fifties,

cars that seemed to stretch 

from sea to mountains,

shark fins to air-brushed front bumper,

and headlamps like lighthouse beacons.

 

Nothing pops off the page anymore.

Vehicles still fill the roads

but no longer the imagination.

Once he was every driver

cruising the highways,

flying by giant billboards,

top open, breeze blowing,

fluttering flat cap on his head.

As for the lovely women 

in the passenger seats,

he married each in turn.

 

He doesn’t understand

that the kids with their cell phones,

I-Pads, tweets and Facebook,

are making their own nostalgia,

the times of their lives 

for future years to look back on.

 

To him, there’s only one past,

only one man missing it.

 

 

 

 

NO ALTERNATIVE

 

In my alternative history,

I’m not Napoleon nor General Custer,

but merely husband number two

of some madwoman named Lucy

who clubs her spouses on the skull

as they’re bathing,

holds their heads under

as they struggle to recover from the blow.

 

I don’t conquer other lands,

vanquish their armies

nor am I slaughtered  

in an ill-considered skirmish

at Little Big Horn.

But I do make the newspapers.

Too late, in this case,

so save the clippings for my scrapbook.

 

I much prefer my current life,

anonymous as it may be.

I can take a bath without the threat

of it being my last time in the tub.

Not that everything’s serene in the household.

My wife is angry with my bad habits,

bursts into the bathroom waving

a smelly, unwashed sock over my head.

In its alternate history, it’s a hammer.

 

 

 

 

OFF THE BOOZE

 

I go by the bar

on a wave of extreme self-control,

keep my nose to the sidewalk.

I’d like to have my halo now please.

 

I keep moving on the straight and narrow

and that’s where you come in

taking me aside like a cop many times

and saying, “It doesn’t have to be this way.”

 

So I’m headed to the restaurant

where the two of us will meet up

and I’ll order…no I won’t…

no beer no whiskey, no mixed drink,

 

just water from the tap for me.

Then you arrive 

and the meal comes.

And the conversation goes on

between forkfuls. 

 

And all through my lasagna

I’m thinking how a hot toddy

would finish the night off exquisitely

But I order a decaf coffee instead.

 

So what if my knees are shaking,

my hands are trembling,

my throat is crying out for salvation. 

“Keep this up and you’ll 

 

feel like a new man,” you add.

The truth is there a lot 

of new men I could feel like

and only half of them are unwillingly sober.

 

Now all I need do now

is find one of those who loves you for it.

 

 

 

 

CAN’T KEEP A GOOD MAN HANGING

 

Matt’s alive and well I believe,

living some place in New Jersey,

selling second-hand cars. 

The stories of him hanging himself 

in a motel room in Colorado are patently false.

That was just his idea of the ultimate selfie,

a snapshot with death.

But he left the scene once the cops were done

with his body.

That’s when he hitchhiked across country,

just like in the old days.

 

Matt always had a convincing tongue

so I expect he’s doing just fine  

passing certifiable lemons onto the unsuspecting.

Didn’t he sell us all that line about

how depressed he was, how the drugs 

didn’t do it for him any longer.

We all bought it. So we wept.

But that was before his stint 

at “Burke’s Guaranteed One Owner 

Reconditioned Dream Cars.”

 

He doesn’t call or send emails.

We figure he’s too busy fooling

all those New Jerseyites.

Like he fooled us with those grim messages.

But so what if he laughed behind

that hand that tied the knot.

That was Matt,

just the thing he’d do 

if he was contemplating a career change.

 

His sister came by,

asked if anyone had any interest

in taking his old guitar or his vinyl collection

or the box of all poetry he wrote.

She spent an hour or more crying on my shoulder.

Must have bought a crappy car off him, I reckon.




John Grey is an Australian poet, US resident, recently published in New World Writing, Santa Fe Literary Review, and Lost Pilots. Latest books, ”Between Two Fires”, “Covert” and  “Memory Outside The Head” are available through Amazon. Work upcoming in the Seventh Quarry, La Presa and California Quarterly..