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Sunday, October 15, 2023

New Book of Poetry: Joseph Ridgwell VICTORIA (2023) Wallingford Press, 44 pages





In the prelude to Victoria, Joseph Ridgwell writes, "So here I am. It’s 2023 and I’m 50 years of age. And yet I’ve never grown up and people say I look younger than ever. Of course they could be lying. Whatever. All I know is that many years ago I decided to fictionalise my entire life. And that’s just what I’ve done. And what is real and what isn’t real? There’s probably more truth in what I’ve written than anyone will ever realise. I really did all these things. And now to Victoria, can you fall in love at 50? Of course you can and I did. And this little book of poetry is testament to that. Victoria has brown hair and brown eyes and a light brown stare."

Asked about the backstory to the book Ridgwell says, "It's a bizarre story George. I'd been seeing Victoria (not her real name) on a casual basis for a few years. Nothing serious. Then, last xmas, my mum handed me a box of letters, handwritten ones, dating back from 1985 right up to 1997, the year the internet and email  came into mainstream use. The letters stop at 1997. 

"There were a bunch of letters from my first love - Victoria! Her posh parents had banned her from seeing me, a they thought I was a bad influence (i.e not good enough for their middle-class daughter) Anyway, I made the mistake of reading one where Victoria declares her undying love for me and even threatens to kill herself if I ever leave her. Pure teenage angst. She was 17, I was 18.

"And then boom, I fell head over heels in love with Victoria. But did I??? The shrinks would have a field day, I’d be a test case. Now, looking back I don’t think I did fall in love with Victoria, but some long repressed feelings from over 30 years ago were suddenly unleashed after I read the letter, and I transferred those feelings over to Victoria. (Never told 'Victoria' about the letter btw).

"The feelings lasted around a year, and were acute, I lost a stone and half in weight (love sick) but the feelings then suddenly disappeared. I stopped seeing Victoria, and started seeing someone else. 

"So, is that the end of the story, I’m not sure. Only time will tell."


Here is a selection from the book of 26 poems posted with the permission of the poet:




 

Love is real

Love is a sickness 

You can go crazy for a while

Start doing things you wouldn’t normally do

Act out of character

Get a little paranoid

Love is real alright

And most people don’t know what love is

Because they’ve never been in love

In fact when I think about it

Love is fifty thousand bats rushing blindly from the gates of hell

And headed straight for you.





Witchcraft

 

I’ve got it bad

All the classic symptoms

Loss of appetite

Insomnia

Obsessive thought patterns

It’s a wonder how they do it

The female

But they can

And that’s where their

Real power lies

Not in feminist emancipation

Or girl empowerment

But in good old-fashioned

And deadly 

Witchcraft.





Love In The Morning

 

No time to lose

Strip clothes

And leap into bed

And then lying together

Kissing in the shadows

Your tongue my tongue

Your legs entwined with mine

Our hearts beating madly.







Joseph Ridgwell

 

 

Joseph Ridgwell is a working class author who was raised on a council estate in East London. After leaving school Ridgwell worked a series of menial jobs. He has worked as a butchers boy, apprentice upholsterer, tile warehouseman, common labourer, toy salesman, carpet salesman, hospital porter, peanut vendor, telesales, and various call centres. At nineteen he was stabbed in a bar brawl and decided to leave the UK, travel the world and learn how to write. Ridgwell has lived in Cuba, Mexico, Indonesia, Australia, New Zealand, Belize and finally Thailand where he ran a bar. Since 2011 Ridgwell has resided in Scotland.

 

In 2023 Ridgwell was long-listed for the Moniack Mhor International Writers Residency.

 

In 2021 Ridgwell was the recipient of a Royal Literary Society grant for Literary Merit.

 

In 2021 Ridgwell was the recipient of a Creative Scotland Arts Grant to write his latest novel - The Island.

 

A collection of poetry - She Moves Through the Fair - was published by Kilmog Press in 2020

 

Ridgwell Stories - published in June 2015 by New York’s Bottle of Smoke Press - was nominated for a 2016 Pushcart Prize and long-listed for the 2016 Saboteur awards.

 

Ridgwell’s work has also appeared in numerous anthologies. Chiron Review, Abridged, Hanzir, Dwang, Tra Ver Sees, Push, Paper & Ink, Gustave, The Dawntreader, The Arsonist etc…

 


 

                        Also by Joseph Ridgwell

 

Where are the Rebels (2008)

Load the Guns(2009)

Last Days of the Cross(2009)

Lost Elation (2010)

Oswald’s Apartment(2010)

Indonesia(2011)

The Buddha Bar(2011)

The Tsanta Expedition(2011)

Fire Island(2012)

The Famous Ice-Cream Run (2013)

A Child of the Jago (2013)

Cuba (2014)

Ridgwell - Stories (2015)

Burrito Deluxe(2015)

Jamaica(2016)

Mexico (2017)

The Beach Poems (2018)

The Cross (2018)

L’Exaltation Perdue (2019)

Ibiza (2019)

Wolf Star (2019)

She Moves Through the Fair (2020)

The Heist & Other Tales (2021)

 




Buy the book here: https://www.wallingfordpressbooks.com/product-page/victoria-by-joseph-ridgwell

Saturday, February 24, 2018

Book Review: Bill Gainer The Mysterious Book of OLD MAN POEMS (Lummox Press, San Pedro, 2018) 120 pages


One of my favourite poetry books over the last five years has been Bill Gainer’s Lipstick and Bulletholes (Epic Rites Press, 2014) so I was excited to learn that he had recently published a new book The Mysterious Book of Old Man Poems through legendary Lummox Press https://www.lummoxpress.com/lc/). The book is a collection rich in observational & narrative poems, told from Gainer’s perspective, a man in his late 60s. Gainer writes about mundane things, such as, bookstore cats, listening to the falling snow, pissing off his porch, but he also attempts to tackle the big issues- of love & death- usually with great warmth, depth & humanity.

There are 89 typically short free verse poems in this collection. The writing is fresh, pared back, intimate and always full of surprises. Gainer gives us just enough detail, without providing the specifics of his own experiences, to allow the reader to reflect on our own pasts & how we too might have stuffed up & perhaps impulsively thought about “reaching for the pistol.”

The collection is the by-product of the long lasting relationship between Gainer  and his publisher RD Armstrong. Asked about his previous involvement in Lummox Press and the process of getting the book published Gainer explains in the interview which follows this review:

“Armstrong and I go way back.  Probably close to 20 years.  Though RD has long called Southern California home, his dad lived up north here, close to me, and before he passed, RD would visit him a couple of times a year.  I was running the Nevada County Poetry Series back then, and got a call from RD about him possibly doing a reading for us the next time he was up visiting.  We went to lunch, and struck up a friendship that has lasted over the years. 

“Over the years we have supported one another in a gang of ways: doing readings together, visiting back and forth, mutual publications and different things.  He has always been generous in asking me to send a poem or two for various anthologies and magazines he was publishing.  And whenever I had the opportunity, I would go down south to support their releases.  A while back we were on the phone talking about me coming down to be part of a release reading for Lummox #6.  He asked if I had anything new in the works.  At the time I was shopping around The Mysterious Book of Old Man Poems, and had two publishers who wanted it, one in Canada and the other in Kansas City.  For various reasons, neither fit my needs.  I really wanted to get someone out here on the coast who had good distribution.  Though Lummox fit both of those requirements I hadn’t thought about making an inquiry.  RD asked to see the manuscript, liked it and we hammered out a deal. 

“As for working with Armstrong, I couldn’t ask for a better situation.  Though he can be a very straight talking, blunt, grump at times – I find him a pleasure to work with.  Let’s face it, the relationship between a writer and his/her publisher is a very intimate affair – one based on trust. I trust him.  RD does all the back work, I go out and sell books.  It works well for both of us.”

Despite the outward simplicity of Bill Gainer’s poetry it is awkward & limiting to sum up what he has achieved in this book because his work is so varied and there are so many different cogs churning in his work. Upon first reading when you think you have him figured out & begin to consider that in some of his poems he has become complacent, trite or tired- he "busts a move" & tosses another incredible gem or two our way for us to feast on.

Gainer says in part about his writing, “I have no set method for writing.  I am relentless about taking notes, I rewrite and edit continuously – most of which is done late at night and early into the morning.  I do not write every day.  Though, most days, I am working on something.  

“I seldom write political stuff… I write about how I feel about things, not what I think I know about things. I’m not a journalist – my job is not to fill the page, but to fill the heart. Hard work for an old man who, these days, wishes more than he prays.”

 The title of book The Mysterious Book of Old Man Poems is coolly enigmatic and I was curious as to what Gainer meant by the word “mysterious.” In the interview which follows, Gainer implies that “mystery” shapes his experiences and enables him to see people & things in a romantic hue & he has no need to try to rationalise these feelings,“I mostly live in the moment, and don’t like to complicate things. Mysterious events, people and things tend to take on a romantic connotation for me.  I like to leave them as they are – mysterious. It allows me to dream my way into the back story, to dance close in smoke filled barrooms, drink bourbon slow, and sometimes whisper a secret to a stranger.”


 The front cover is designed by Hungarian photographer Sarolta Bán (http://www.saroltaban.com/prints ). Asked  about the design of the cover Gainer replied: “A friend showed me some of Bán’s work and I was enthralled.  I fell in love with the Three Crows and the Old Man piece.  It seemed a perfect representation of The Mysterious Book of Old Man Poems.  We ran down Bán’s agent, and cut a licensing agreement to use the picture.  All I know about the picture is that Bán is a digital artist and I am assuming she combined three or four photos to create the piece.  Check her out, her work in enchanting.”

As you might expect, OLD MAN POEMS often deals with an old man’s concerns: such as sitting around doing nothing (“The Great Mysteries of Nothing”), gardening (“The Digging”), thinking about friends & acquaintances long since deceased (“Franks Bicycle”, “A Fellow Traveler”, “The Wrong Side of Dirt”), reading obituary columns (“Ruby S.- the reincarnation of”), outlining the type of funeral he wants (“The Someday Plan”) and imagining the incredible solitude which will be ushered in with his last breath (“A Place in the Quiet”).

Gainer’s work is never clichéd or predictable. These are certainly not the poems of an old man on his last legs as you might find in Clive James’s Injury Time (Picador 2017). These are poems full of yearning, hopeful love and abundant humour. Gainer breathes humanity onto every page through his diary like collection of feelings, thoughts, insights and impressions.

“The Someday Plan” is a typical and highly memorable “old man” poem which reveals Gainer’s clear, free verse style & cheeky humour. He uses an intimate, conversational tone. It is as if he is talking directly to the reader. The last stanza adds a nice personal touch when he casually invites us to his wake.

The Someday Plan

I want my ashes
in a cocktail
shaker
silver plated
knocked around a little
vintage.
Just so the lid
stays on.

At the funeral
plays the Stone’s
“Sympathy for the Devil”
and maybe Solomon Burke’s
“Can’t Nobody Love You”
just so Kae St. Marie knows
I do…
Otis’s- “I’ve Been Loving You
Too Long”
Because you gotta have
Otis.
Close it out
with the Isley Brothers
“Shout.”
Join in
raise your arms up, shout- loud.
I like a noisy crowd.

A dear friend
out of New Orleans
says he’ll hoist my final
toast
something legendary
make the old men
sit quiet, reflect
the ladies sip their bourbon
ask for another- smile, blush
and the lovers pull close
not caring who sees.

I’m hoping
he doesn’t miss
the show.
There have been
a couple of
nasty incidents.
He likes to chase
crazy women.
Most of them
carry knives.

When it comes around
you’re invited.
Stop by
have a cold drink.
It could be a potluck
would be nice
if you brought
a little something.

(all poems posted in this review are with the poet's permission)

Time is also an important motif which Gainer often personifies in his poetry. In “A Better Place to Be” the speaker regretfully reflects that he has spent “too many years/ on the assembly line” and he concludes sarcastically:

We grow old
and time wars on.
We’ve built our empires-
the young ones
are building theirs.

These days- it’s different
the factories- gone.
All that’s pulled
from the past
rusts.

It’s a new world,
some say
A better place
to be.

 In “A Night Wish” the speaker thinks about a former lover and realizes that “she’s mostly gone./ Time shuffles/ memory.” In the excellent poem “Hushed in Loneliness” Gainer contemplates how a painful, suppressed memory from childhood can resurface to make “reaching for the pistol/ that much easier.”  Despair & loneliness emerges, then as it does now, through the realization that:
“all time does/ is push/ all you want/ farther away.”

More subtle perhaps are Gainer’s ruminations on time which are often metaphorically linked, like Robert Frost, to the seasons. “The Disappearance of Time”, “In the Time of Wind”, “Surrendering the Leaves”, “The Last Light of Summer”, “The Sounds of Snow” and “The Hands of Winter Reaching” are short, highly evocative poems which operate on both a literal & metaphoric level.

The highly impressive “The Hands of Winter Reaching” is an ominous poem in which the speaker foreshadows his own death:

The Hands of Winter Reaching

It’s nights like these that bother me
the cool breeze of fall has arrived
not threatening, but warning.
The threat comes later
along with the promise.
Know winter smiles
with one tooth missing
but bites just as hard.
And tonight’s breeze
just a warning
winter is coming
for you.

Asked about how he is going as a man in his late 60s, Gainer candidly remarks, “Yeah – by chance I just happen to be born into the first generation of life’s new paradox:  ‘You may have the great good fortune of living to be 100 years old, or you may have the grave misfortune of living to be 100 years old.’  Me, I’m good with things, the poems tell the stories. Yeah, there are a few folks I’d like to see dead before I go.  I got a list – it’s kind of private.  Don’t worry, you’re not on it.  Other than that – it’s been a good-crazy-mad-run ... I’m good.”

At the heart of Bill Gainer’s poetry is his exploration of love in its many facets- the yearning for love, both real & imaginary (“Women I’ve Loved”, “NOLA- Sings to me”, “Ruby S. – the reincarnation of”) the suffocating expectations & hatred love can sometimes bring (“The Joy of Crows”, “Christmas Eve with Her”), the nostalgic glow of lost or fading love (“Kissing Shadows”, “A Rickety HOTEL- a CLIFFSIDE, HWY 1, LONG AGO”) and the importance of keeping the flame alive (“Blame it on the Gardenias”, “A Magical Thing”, “A Last Drink of Water”).

Gainer never tries to dumb it down, fuck with our emotions or pull a swifty on us. His writings on love are always deeply grounded, and on occasion, emotionally profound.  “A Night Weeping- San Francisco” is an outstanding poem in which the speaker quietly observes a young couple and senses through the missed signals of their subtle body language that their love is doomed. The poem concludes:

The chill
of a night weeping
holds her tighter
than he
ever will.

A looser, more sophisticated love poem is aptly entitled, “A Different Kind of Love Poem” which appears early in the collection. The transitions made by Gainer between the personal, cultural and political spheres are seamlessly & brilliantly handled. His wry, dismissive tone, and by contrast, the intimate second person narration & contemporary referencing add to our total enjoyment of the work.

A Different Kind of Love Poem

The world is full of them
the fools.
I’ve been there myself
sometimes wishing I wasn’t
sometimes wishing I was
and sometimes
just not knowing the difference.
They’re there.
Some waiting to push the button
just to hear the boom
and some waiting
to dust off their champion
after the loss
just because
they need
someone to love.

That’s what I’m doing
trying to write a love poem
about you and me
with the shades pulled
and the doors closed
sitting in the cool
alone- together.

You in your slip
one barrette in your hair-
me in my shorts
one sock on
trying to figure a way
to steal a line
from John Prine
just so I can tell you
if you need a fool
to love you
I know one.

Asked about his interest in writing poems about love and what he has learnt about it, Gainer quips, “It has long been a part of what I do.  What I have learned about it – nothing!  What one loves another hates.  If that isn’t the architecture of battle, what is?  It is beautiful. Touching another’s finger tips is nice thing to do now and then though ... I’ve found a bit of magic hidden there.”

As you can see through this brief review of Bill Gainer’s poems, he is comfortable with who he is and how he can unleash nuanced but powerful immortal poems on the whim of a conversation, personal reflection or observation. His capacity to tap into the blurred, often ambiguous side to our emotional states is uncanny and this is essentially what makes Gainer’s poetry so compelling to read over and over again. Gainer is at his best as a poet when he is sipping on a bourbon, drawing back on a smoke, having a good look around, abandoning all notions of ambition and simply and authentically commenting on the quiet mysteries of the moment.

 Bio: Bill Gainer is a storyteller, humorist, poet and a maker of mysterious things. He earned his BA from St. Mary's college, and his MPA from the University of San Francisco. He is the publisher of the PEN Award winning R.L. Crow Publications, and is the ongoing host of Red Alice's Poetry Emporium (Sacramento, CA). Gainer is internationally published, and known across the country for giving legendary fun filled performances. His work is not for sissies. Visit him in his books, at his personal appearances, or at his website: http://billgainer.com



INTERVIEW WITH BILL GAINER 22 FEBRUARY 2018

Can you outline your involvement with Lummox Press and the process of working with RD Armstrong in getting The Mysterious Book of Old Man Poems published?

BG –
Armstrong and I go way back.  Probably close to 20 years.  Though RD has long called Southern California home, his dad lived up north here, close to me, and before he passed, RD would visit him a couple of times a year.  I was running the Nevada County Poetry Series back then, and got a call from RD about him possibly doing a reading for us the next time he was up visiting.  We went to lunch, and struck up a friendship that has lasted over the years. 

Over the years we have supported one another in a gang of ways: doing readings together, visiting back and forth, mutual publications and different things.  He has always been generous in asking me to send a poem or two for various anthologies and magazines he was publishing.  And whenever I had the opportunity, I would go down south to support their releases.  A while back we were on the phone talking about me coming down to be part of a release reading for Lummox #6.  He asked if I had anything new in the works.  At the time I was shopping around The Mysterious Book of Old Man Poems, and had two publishers who wanted it, one in Canada and the other in Kansas City.  For various reasons, neither fit my needs.  I really wanted to get someone out here on the coast who had good distribution.  Though Lummox fit both of those requirements I hadn’t thought about making an inquiry.  RD asked to see the manuscript, liked it and we hammered out a deal. 

As for working with Armstrong, I couldn’t ask for a better situation.  Though he can be a very straight talking, blunt, grump at times – I find him a pleasure to work with.  Let’s face it, the relationship between a writer and his/her publisher is a very intimate affair – one based on trust. I trust him.  RD does all the back work, I go out and sell books.  It works well for both of us. 


You seem to have a fascination with the word “mysterious”. You previously published a chapbook in the Lummox little red book series “The Mysterious Woman Next Door” and the word appears a few times in your latest book. I was wondering if I could pin you down on what you mean by the word “mysterious”, particularly in regard to the title of the book. For instance, are you referring to the mystery of the creative process, of how inspiration & persistence can lead to ink on a page or how each reader mysteriously translates/ interprets your poetry according to his/ her own personal experiences or are you talking about life in general?

BG –
Well, it does pop up now and then – doesn’t it?  The short answer is, none of the above.  I am a very pragmatic kind of guy. Actually, I am a dyed in the wool “Utilitarian”. I mostly live in the moment, and don’t like to complicate things. Mysterious events, people and things tend to take on a romantic connotation for me.  I like to leave them as they are – mysterious. It allows me to dream my way into the back story, to dance close in smoke filled barrooms, drink bourbon slow, and sometimes whisper a secret to a stranger.  That’s all.

What’s the story behind the front cover design? It is designed by the Hungarian artist Sarolta Bán and features a surreal appropriation of a photo of an old man walking amongst three giant ravens.  Do you know where the original photos are taken from?

BG –
A friend showed me some of Bán’s work and I was enthralled.  I fell in love with the Three Crows and the Old Man piece.  It seemed a perfect representation of The Mysterious Book of Old Man Poems.  We ran down Bán’s agent, and cut a licensing agreement to use the picture.  All I know about the picture is that Bán is a digital artist and I am assuming she combined three or four photos to create the piece.  Check her out,
her work in enchanting.


Can you give us the run down about your present methods of getting it down on the page? Do you write every day?  Do you do much editing? Where do you find sources of inspiration?

BG –
I have no set method for writing.  I am relentless about taking notes, I rewrite and edit continuously – most of which is done late at night and early into the morning.  I do not write every day.  Though, most days, I am working on something.  

I seldom write political stuff. The regurgitation of the evening news is not what I do. As a citizen I have a lot to say about those things – as a poet, not so much. I recently reread 1984.  If you want write about politics start there. Though it does have its own beauty, 1984 is an ugly book with an ugly ending.  Isn’t that what politics are? Ugly. I write about how I feel about things, not what I think I know about things. I’m not a journalist – my job is not to fill the page, but to fill the heart. Hard work for an old man who, these days, wishes more than he prays.

Many of your poems are about love, including the ongoing longing for love and lost love. Any pointers about what you’ve learnt about love so far? (As an aside, who is Kae St. Marie?)

BG –
Yes, that alliteration – “Love, Loss, and Longing.”  It has long been a part of what I do.  What I have learned about it – nothing!  What one loves another hates.  If that isn’t the architecture of battle, what is?  It is beautiful. Touching another’s finger tips is nice thing to do now and then though ... I’ve found a bit of magic hidden there.

Kae St. Marie and I have run together for a lifetime.  We were high school sweethearts, and remain so.  The deal was, whoever left first had to take the kids, neither of us had that much courage.  So here we are.


Many of your poems are told from the point of view of an old man who increasingly thinks about death. What’s your personal experience of life in your late sixties?

BG –
Yeah – by chance I just happen to be born into the first generation of life’s new paradox:  “You may have the great good fortune of living to be 100 years old, or you may have the grave misfortune of living to be 100 years old.”  Me, I’m good with things, the poems tell the stories. Yeah, there are a few folks I’d like to see dead before I go.  I got a list – it’s kind of private.  Don’t worry, you’re not on it.  Other than that – it’s been a good-crazy-mad-run ... I’m good.

You’ve been doing readings for the book. How’s the book faring so far? What has been the reaction of the community?

BG –
The Mysterious Book of Old Man Poems is doing amazingly.  The reviews have been great and sales over top.  It is selling in the numbers I wish others were blessed with.  

And yes, I am hitting the bricks doing a gang of readings to support it. I’ll have hit most of the county (U.S.) by the end of the year. The truth is, a publisher can’t sell a book for you.  Once it is in print, and the publicity laid down, it is time for the author to go to work.  You have to get out there and sell it, do the readings, and shows – put the time in.  It is all part of the commitment the writer makes to the publisher.  I’m looking at doing at least two years of support for The Mysterious Book of Old Man Poems.  Lummox has packaged the work in a product I am proud of, they have stretched out for me, now it is my turn. It’s the job.  

What do you read these days? Found any good new writers lately?

BG –
The poets Rebecca Schumejda, Heather Bell, Tyree Daye and the novelist Joshua Mohr.  These young writers are marvelous. They all take different approaches to their work, storytelling, and the expression of their experiences and feelings.  Just wonderful.  Check them out.


What’s next for you?

BG –
I continue to write poems, do readings, and have fun.  Maybe get another poem book out in two or three years.  I’m not one of those guys who needs to have a ton of titles out – doing three or four books a year.  Competing with yourself in the marketplace is silly, the folks give up on you.  

I am working on a longer project, The Penny Hoarder. It has a few more years of work waiting.  I am having fun with it though.  

That’s all I got for now.  Thanks for asking.

Thanks for taking the time Bill.